Childhood Sun

It's kind of funny how easily
You put things into perspective.
You always have, you always had my back,
You always taught me
How to be strong, how to have faith,
How to keep looking forward...
How to hold on, how to be soft and gentle.
You taught me to laugh, to persevere,
To never look behind me...
And now that you're gone I can't look up,
I can't look forward honey.
One set of photos ripped me up,
How you and I were back then...
Nothing else matters, not these boys,
No heartache is as strong as yours
And I am suffocating.

One look at you and nothing matters...
The boys that break my heart are nothing,
They're ghosts of what could be but won't be.
They're shadows of that man you should have been
And nothing they can do to tear my soul
Matters now that you're gone.
One look at you, from then and now,
My heart does the same back-flips,
I love now, I loved you then
And nothing else can touch me.
There's innocence behind my eyes
Your name could pacify me...
Now all it does is tear apart
All that I've built to hold me.

I loved you since we first crossed paths,
You were my favorite playmate...
First boy I loved, first boy I fought,
The keeper of my heart-rate.
I hated you a thousand times,
I loved a hundred thousand...
And now I'm stuck in limbo, dear,
Hoping you forgave me.