Stilled Mind

I wished to still my mind so I may catch my breath,
And instead I found a silence so unbearable!
The quiet and the stillness is quite fragile, now,
And all the quiet thoughts that were
Are now too loud.
The doubts are magnified, the fears as well,
The moment the loneliness subsides
The hell, that was no longer is,
And in its place lies simple tragedy.
Not tragedy for my innocent soul,
But for the Darkness that used to control
My every moment, my every movement,
My lack of motivation,
My slow improvement!
In an instant, I can feel the Light break in
And in it's path, it silences all things!
What lies ahead, I see, the Darkness from within
Can  be no match to Light and it will win!
I stilled my mind to catch my breath for you,
Indubitably I lost my footing and my balance,
And fell into the dark abyss of doubting you, but then
The light that came into my life has changed my look,
And I can see you now with fresh-washed eyes....
I can tell you now, while I'm myself,
That you are worth the questions and the doubt,
For in your arms I'm still, I'm quiet, and
In your embrace all that was no longer is,
And all I am is willing to remain unmoved
As long as you give this the chance
You promised me you would.