You Don't Understand

You don't know how hard it is for me to stop,
You don't understand how lucky you are...
Not needing to do what I do,
Being okay with people around you,
Not wanting something you shouldn't receive...
You're far too lucky, my dear.

You don't understand what reaction you cause
When you're standing a little too close...
When I can smell the unique scent of your skin,
When the clothing you wear is too thin,
When the warmth from your body intensifies sin
Since you're not fighting with the monster within.

You don't have to struggle with keeping away,
With taking a breath and walking away,
With trying to keep the f*cker at bay
When all you can think of is the red stuff in their vein
And you have to maintain your composure as sane,
No, you don't understand this game.

You don't think of how you'll affect me
When your arms really embrace me
And you pull me close to your neck...
When all I can smell is your scent,
Where the skin is too soft and too thin...
And I need to balance my wants.

You trigger in me something too dormant,
I work all too hard to calm down this need...
I try really hard to keep you from seeing
This struggle within the walls of my skin
And you do stupid things that put us at risk
And you don't even think of these things!

You know that I love you, my dear
As my best friend, I will always be there...
But sometimes I need you to keep your distance
Because there's something as simple as slipping...
And you don't appreciate the struggle
But you don't want to meet the uncensored vampire.

P.S: It doesn't look like this.