Poetry

No More

No more reasonable defeat...
No more tears
No more blood spilled
No more fears.
No more pain
No more nightmares,
No more doubts
No more settling
No more darkness
No more you.

I cut you from my life,
I cut you out and away,
Be gone from my sight and my mind
And please, don't stay.
The worst part of all,
Is that while cutting you away,
I cut myself too deep
That's what I had to pay...
In cutting you out
I cut all of myself..
And now there's nothing left
Of anything in me.

I wonder

I wonder sometimes if this can be true..
If all I have done comes back to you
If all I have said, follows your path,
If waiting here could bring you back.
I wonder now, if I'm right for you
You're right for me, aren't you?
But as the rain falls, and my walls fall too,
As I'm on my knees begging for you
As I bleed my soul, to be in your arms...
I wonder, "Is this our last chance?"

Just Now

Now that I think about it...
It seems to make sense,
How all of your questions
Are easy to answer,
How all of my thoughts
Seem to be true,
How all of my feelings
Return to you,
When most are letting go
We're still going strong
More tension than others,
More stress than can be
But yet, you still stand by me,
Our dreams overbearing
Our touch is like drugs
With no one else caring
About what we've done
Forever and Always I will be at your call,
In life and in death,
You'll be above all.

You are the Beach

You cannot be the reason
The waves come to the shore,
The sweet intoxication
Of many waves before,
The cold breeze hitting gently
The pale face in the sun,
Another innocence,
To blow deadly leafs
In other silly hands
In other shaking knees.
You cannot be the simple
Wind hitting my face...
The comfort and the passion
Without the simple grace
Of being lovely and in love
With nature's endorphins
But yet again I falter
And sand gets in my eyes,
But with the sand that cuts me
I do fall to my knees
And I know you darling,
Now you're a part of me.

Ashen Past

Cold lips on my hips,
How can you touch me like this?
Head between my knees,
Cold self against my skin...
Icy lips on my neck to leave bruise behind,
In another time when you were mine
When nothing else mattered
When I was all yours
When rain was my lover
The moon my disguise
When we ran away,
Slept on the shore line,
And I remember clearly
The look in your eyes
With such warmth inside,
When the love in your smile
Could still hypnotize...
Now when you hold me at night
You hold me like a doll
I won't collapse under pressure
I won't break at all.
Tiny bruises left behind
Seem to kill you inside...
Self hatred leaves you blind
And you fall in line,
Relax, darling,
Now you are mine.

Judging

Judging by how you look at me,
I once was your world, used to be...
Somehow that changed and I fell
Slipped through your hands, broke the spell
Left you all alone in a distant hell.
I'm sorry, my dear.

Judging by the way you hold me,
You once held me close to your heart
You must have watched me breaking apart
For centuries now, all alone
You hold me like a porcelain doll...
I won't break if I fall.

Judging by the bruises you leave,
You're trying to touch me again...
Leaving another mark on my skin,
Don't worry, I understand...
You're trying hard to hold my hand
And let me sleep in your arms.

So Strange

It's so strange to have you here again
Your hand in mine for yet another night,
Your cold body pressed against mine
And I sleep again.
I call your name in my sleep
And you come again...
Fighting another demon...
Breaking another nightmare,
Cut them to pieces, annihilate
All that might harm me,
All that might make me cry
All that might scare me.

My Angel

Another angel has lost his feathers
On his way down from Heaven,
He fell from His grace, fell to the ground
And now he is hoping to never be found.
He tries so hard to piece his heart
To glue everything together
It breaks my heart to see the world
Not try to make it better.