Fine

With a shuddering breath I tell him I'm fine,
And I know that he knows that I'm lying,
The words drip from my lips like honey
Like heroin soaked promises of forever of maybe,
And I can't bring myself to tell him the truth
As it is, bitter, unfilled, sharp and untamed
Since its been running like a beast in my brain,
Clawing at everything keeping me sane
And I can't tell him I'm scared
That I'll never be free of this hell
That he built that I helped lock myself in
With promises of paradise hidden within...
But I'm fine, home sweet home is this cage,
With a shuddering breath i swallow the rage.