I don't know

I don’t know why I seek comfort

In your decrepit arms,

Your heart is shattered, lungs are damaged

From all the harm you’ve done.

I don’t know why I keep expecting

For you to fix my aches and pains,

When all you do is punish me

For feeling any pain.

You lack the words, you lack the patience

What if I had lacked them then?

Would you be where you are right now

If I had been so mean?

I don’t know why I reach for you

To fix the holes in me,

When all you do is run away

Until you need something.