At The Beep

Hey, I’m not around. You know what to do at the beep! -BEEP-

Wednesday
6:03pm	Hey it’s me. It’ been about a week since we talked. Is this enough time? Are you cooled off yet? Well. Call me.
7:04pm	Babe, please. Answer the phone. We really need to talk about this. Call me.
7:45pm	Are you seriously not going to fucking answer? This entire thing was bullshit anyway what the fuck? Seriously. Call me.
10:45pm	You know what? Fuck you. This whole fucking thing was your fault and you can’t even have the fucking decency to pick up the fucking phone? I wanted to patch shit up but you obviously can’t be fucking bothered.
11:04pm	Did you find yourself another fucktoy? Is that what this is? You don’t even have the fucking guts to tell me to my fucking face? ANSWER THE FUCKING PHONE!
Thursday
1:34am	Fine. You can be fucking single if you’re acting like this. I thought we could patch shit up but obviously not. Delete my fucking number. I’m done with this shit. And you know what? Cancel your fucking trip and return your fucking anniversary gift to where you bought it. OR fucking set it on fire for all I give a shit. This is done. You fucked up.
1:45am	Next time your fucking friends ask about me you tell them you could have patched shit up but you were too fucking stubborn so you fucked up. I hope you tell them you fucked up. This isn’t on me anymore. This is all on fucking you.
2:58am	(Slurred) Look. I’m sorry. I overreacted. I know this doesn’t make you any more eager to talk to me than before but I’m really sorry. I’ll be better. I promise. I’m so sorry babe.
3:16am	Please call me. Please. I’m losing my mind over here. I need to know we’re going to be okay. I need you in my life baby. Please.
4:47am	Incomprehensible.
Friday
8:45pm	I’m going to keep calling you. You have to answer me at some point. You have to work this out with me.
9:03pm	Think of everything we’ve been through. Remember the anniversary when we got caught in the rain? You looked so beautiful plastered against me. Remember what you told me in that doorway? You said you’re always going to be mine and no matter what we would spend the rest of our lives together. Remember that. You’re mine baby. You belong with me. I swear I’m going to make you the happ----
9:06pm	I think I got cut off. My point is I love you, baby. You’re my whole world. Call me. Please.
Saturday
9:12am	Look, whatever you want, I’ll do it. Just call me. Please. Whatever you want. I’ll move there. Or ill move you here. I’ll move us anywhere you want as long as you’re with me because as long as I have you baby I don’t need anything else just please please please please call me. Please.
4:03pm	Please don’t throw away what we have for one fight. Please. It wasn’t even fucking important. Please. I can’t live without you!
11:59pm	I’m at the end of my wits.
Monday
7:46pm	So this is it? We’re not going to talk again? You’re just going to ghost me? After 6 years you’re just going to ghost me! I thought you loved me. Guess not.
Tuesday
5:15pm	I’m sorry. I’m sure I made a complete ass of myself. Shit, I don’t even remember half the shit I said. I understand now if you’re super pissed. I’m super sorry babe. Give me a call ok? I love you.
7:08pm	Me again. You know, your boyfriend. I’m going to keep calling. You’re my entire life, sweetheart. I’ll fight for you until I’m blue in the face.
11:40pm	How much longer are you planning to torment me? Hm? I miss you. Please. Let me make this right.
Wednesday
4:34am	Do you want me to promise to never do it again? I’ll never even think about it for the rest of my life just please come back. I threw out all of my stash. Even the secret ones. Alice is empty, I even threw the fucking thing out so it wouldn’t remind me. I’ve been looking for a new house just so I can start fresh. I even deleted all of my old contacts. I’ll never touch it again baby please just give me one more shot. I swear to god will be good.
Friday
11:14am	I just flew in. I’m 10 minutes away from your work. I’m coming to talk.
11:56am	What the fuck your boss says she hasn’t seen you in a fucking week. She said you’d been sick and that she’s been trying to contact you. I’m seriously worried now. Answer the fucking phone.
1:49pm	I’ve been banging on your fucking door for an hour. Your car is here and the tv is on. I KNOW YOU’RE FUCKING IN THERE. ANSWER THE FUCKING DOOR!
2:15pm	Now your neighbor says she hasn’t seen you lately. Where the fuck are you? I’m going to look for your key if you don’t answer the fucking door.
2:19pm	Yes, hi, my girlfriend is unconscious. Baby wake up. Babe. I just found her in the fucking tub. I don’t know. Wake the fuck up this isn’t funny. She’s not breathing. I don’t know how fucking long. The water’s cold. She’s really fucking cold. -splashing- SEND SOMEONE RIGHT NOW. I DON’T FUCKING KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. Do you need an address? The door’s open. Yeah I’ll stay on.  -more splashing-
2:58pm	Hi, I’m not sure if your daughter ever mentioned me but please give me a call. The number should be on your screen. -sniffing- please, call me as soon as possible.
Friday
5:05am	Your phone goes straight to voicemail now. I fucking miss you so much. Why the fuck did you do that? Why? -sobs- I can’t… how the fuck do I go on without you? What the fuck am I supposed to do now? I can’t fucking live without you. I really want to shoot up. Maybe I’ll see you soon baby.
Thursday
3:08am	Wow. Your voicemail isn’t even full yet. Good. Maybe your brother’s deleting them off the account. I’m surprised they’re still paying the bill. I’m glad. I fucking miss you so much. I can’t live without you babe. I can’t fucking live without you. I won’t fucking do it. They can’t make me. I’ll see you soon. I’ll see you soon.
Friday
12:01am	THE NUMBER YOU HAVE REACHED HAS BEEN CHANGED OR DISCONNECTED.