Darkness

There's this darkness that comes on the horizon in waves so tall...
And when they smash upon my head - sparks fly ahead
As if to warn the future of this dreadful wave...
And there's this sadness that comes from above
Like lightning, hitting my soul,
And each time it hits, it splits me in four...
One for you, one for him, one for her, one for all.
And this darkness, these demons eat my wings,
And cut me down to size, smaller than I have ever been!
I am forced to submit to their will, to their shouts,
And at their hands I am powerless, pathetic, and lost...
So they drown me in my blood, in your blood,
So there's no way out, and I lie on the floor thinking,
Singing to myself about seeing the moon,
About being free under the moonlight, everlong.
But they come again, when the wave ends there's a time
Of strength, of brief bliss when all heals...
Just long enough for the wounds to close,
For me to smile wholeheartedly,
For me to cling to you and listen to your heartbeat,
And there's a brief moment, seconds, in which all is well...
When nothing is wrong, when no voice tells me
How worthless I am, and how hopeless I am,
And there's no voice telling me endlessly
Exactly how I should close my curtains,
How the fat lady should sing,
And exactly what to tell you when I leave...
There's no voice, for a moment, that reminds me
Of how I'm holding you back-- of how you could do better.
And in that moment, things aren't bitter,
And in that moment, things are sweeter...
And in that moment, I'm fearful...
Because I know that when I blink,
It will be over and that wave...
That darkness will come again
And descend upon my heaven
And turn it to hell.