Running

Running out of ideas

Running out of options…

I’m afraid of you,

I am terrified.

Running through the hallways,

Running through the darkness

And when I stop…

I am afraid again.

Running endless hours

From another distance,

You’re too far away,

And I can’t stop bleeding.

Fighting for a chance,

Fighting for forgiveness,

But as I run away

I leave myself behind.

All my doubts have left,

My questions erased

All my innocence

Watch evaporate.

I will run away

Until I cannot feel

Or whatever I feel

Slowly disappears.

I will guard my soul,

I will put up walls,

And when you break me out

And you chain me down

When it will be okay,

Just love me please

And do not let me

Run away again.



Meaningless

Stupid little poems,

Stupid little thoughts

As I write them now

They really don’t count.

Did they ever, darling,

Make you smile and then

Make you change your mind

And still be my friend?

Did they make you laugh,

Or hold your hand or mine?

Fucking innocence

Leaves people blind.

Bloody lullabies

Bloody love-stained sheets,

As I evaporate,

I promise

To do all I can,

And be what you need.

I promise you, dear

Between tear stained words

To do us both a favor

And I should be gone.



Silence

Overbearing silence, too much left unsaid,

Another bag is empty, another empty bed…

Tears falling faster, please, I need no more,

You say you care, I say I adore.

No plans for salvation, it never comes my way

Sweetest desperation, slowest tragedy.

A never ending cycle, what are we to do,

When you are too confused, and I’m in love with you?

Too much confusion wasted, our time is not yet done…

Let’s make the best of it, or just merge as one.



Gone

Silver blades cut through skin,

Forgive this bloody sin of mine,

My world is torn to pieces,

My soul is all in shreds

I cannot take away

The pain my heart still dreads.

I pray for cold destruction,

My life has gone to hell

I cannot help myself,

I cannot even tell!

Forgive me, dearest, please

You mean too much to me,

Romeo and Juliet had their tragedy.

Allow me for a moment

To fall prey to despair…

To say all that I feel

My words seem to fail.

I’m gone forever, darling,

I’m gone from your embrace…

Don’t be careless darling,

Remain forever safe.