Broken Wings

Back to myself, let the blood pour,
Wash away the tears and the misery...
No problem, doesn't matter, we'll live again,
Have you missed me? I didn't think so.

Too late to say I love you, too late to hold you tight,
Like a vampire you bit into my neck,
Tore my jugular and let me bleed,
And I did. It's okay.

Fragile like porcelain, no, not me... they're lying to you.
Who me? I'm another species, tougher than rubber.
Violent like drunken wolves, come bite into me,
Blood spilling on the white , it's ok...

No one reads poetry anymore,
What's the point in it it's words on cardboard
And porcelain Angels cast demon shadows,
Never mattered, don't be afraid.

With silk voices they lure you in,
Sit in your lap, get your spirits up...
But like a vampire, your blood will pour,
For their appetites. It's fine.

Silver blades cut tick marks, counting...
One hundred seventy four for the past,
That's just the memories made too fast,
But it's okay, doesn't hurt.

Bleeding hearts pour misery
Over white notebooks, sweet price to pay.
Poetry forgotten, what words?
I hang it in the closet.

Like wolves they tear at porcelain necks,
Forgotten, not alone... but might as well be,
Through porcelain masks,
No one sees a thing.

Happiness is a word in a dictionary,
Without you there's nothing to believe
Like an anchor you hold me in the sand,
Keeping me from flying away.

Like a sledgehammer words hit my face,
Slap after slap, no embrace, to no end they keep hitting,
And I tore my wings out feather by feather
In hope to find something that writes better.

Now I found myself in the black of night,
Few windows and open doors to find,
Missing the flight, missing the wishful thinking...
I'll be better by tomorrow, or so I'm hoping.

They never grew back, though your words I held true,
"Only let them treat you like I treat you"
And I held it true, but I cannot believe...
I listened to the words of the wind.

May I send you a hurricane to blow you away,
Ask for a Sagittarius to send you some flames,
Maybe the Pieces will wash you away
Because Taurus is over letting you stay.

Each element represented, cast a circle,
Call them together and kneel for forgiveness,
Strayed from the path, maybe that's what she meant
When she called me God's blackest angel.

Forgive me again, your highness,
I forgot you're losing track of this poem,
It's the first I have written in what seems like forever
and my fingers are bleeding allover my keyboard.

I suppose you want explanations?
BiPolar disorder I suppose, I don't know...
I wanna be free but I can't let you go
But you're flying for new destinations.

Too much to keep hidden, to little to write,
And they built up forever and ever and now
The words stare at me from the page,
God help me, I'm loosing myself.

With broken wings I sit on the ledge,
My feet dangling delicately into the air...
Sweet suicide isn't an option anymore,
Where the hell is this coming from?!

Scared of my thoughts, unleashing my demons
Parchment paper so they will stay all alone
I'm hurting the people that I held so close..
I'm running out of words to chose.

Point is, broken but never alone,
I have the place I need to call home,
Just wish for a cure, don't wanna hurt anymore,
I don't want to hurt the people I love.