You and I

And when the sun sets into the sea,
And the chain on your anchor breaks...
I will pull you from the depths of the sand
And give you breath, from my breath. Again.

And when the rain falls from the sky,
And the heavens and hell become one...
I will lay down my life for your sake
And give you blood from my blood once more.

And when the moon paints the stars with its light,
And your wings fall apart from the weight...
I will capture your fears, butterfly,
And with them I will light your path.

Dreams

Come meet me in my dreams,
On soft pillows and silky sheets...
Meet me between sweetened fantasies
Of you and me, wrapped tightly in each other's
Dreams, each other's arms, each other's sins...
Because it is between these dreams
That I can show you, dear,
Exactly just how much you mean
To a silly-sleepy girl like me.

Stars

I look at the sky with tears in my eyes and I feel small.
My problems, insignificant, my worries remnant from a time
In which all was still possible-- all was a fantasy and graspable!
I look at the sky and feel so small, worthless,
And in the grand scheme of things the world wouldn't stop
If my heart stopped singing for a while...
And I can't help but feel that one will make a difference
And my rivers would become one with the silence..
But with tears in my eyes, I can see Orion,
My dearest friend whom I can always cry on..
And he comforts me as he climbs through the sky
Telling me "Darling don't cry, you have to be low
Before you are high, so keep your tears for you
Cannot yet die."

Flick

Each flick of the wrist unleashes a world of wonder,
And each river draws its fate on the snow...
Things will get better, I'm told. No proof.
But all I do know is my wasted youth
Will pave the pathway to nowhere,
A cemetery, a party of bones..
Maybe then I'll be skinny...
Maybe then I'll be thin..
And maybe then he will love me
Just like I care for him.
Each flick of the wrist splits unnecessary skin,
And each river carves away more hurt,
More reminders of flaws.
Ironic how each flick of the wrist carves more
Imperfections into an imperfect skin,
And each flick should erase these carvings..
But there's no god anymore,
And before he left he cursed me.
And it seems like no amount of blood pouring
Could carve my body to be good enough,
Thin enough or my mind sharp enough,
My heart strong enough
To be good enough
For him.

Darkness

There's this darkness that comes on the horizon in waves so tall...
And when they smash upon my head - sparks fly ahead
As if to warn the future of this dreadful wave...
And there's this sadness that comes from above
Like lightning, hitting my soul,
And each time it hits, it splits me in four...
One for you, one for him, one for her, one for all.
And this darkness, these demons eat my wings,
And cut me down to size, smaller than I have ever been!
I am forced to submit to their will, to their shouts,
And at their hands I am powerless, pathetic, and lost...
So they drown me in my blood, in your blood,
So there's no way out, and I lie on the floor thinking,
Singing to myself about seeing the moon,
About being free under the moonlight, everlong.
But they come again, when the wave ends there's a time
Of strength, of brief bliss when all heals...
Just long enough for the wounds to close,
For me to smile wholeheartedly,
For me to cling to you and listen to your heartbeat,
And there's a brief moment, seconds, in which all is well...
When nothing is wrong, when no voice tells me
How worthless I am, and how hopeless I am,
And there's no voice telling me endlessly
Exactly how I should close my curtains,
How the fat lady should sing,
And exactly what to tell you when I leave...
There's no voice, for a moment, that reminds me
Of how I'm holding you back-- of how you could do better.
And in that moment, things aren't bitter,
And in that moment, things are sweeter...
And in that moment, I'm fearful...
Because I know that when I blink,
It will be over and that wave...
That darkness will come again
And descend upon my heaven
And turn it to hell.