Druggie

You're just my brand of heroin - without you I get itchy...

My eyes are blood shot and I can't sleep,

My mouth is dry and I can't breathe...

I can't sit still and pray for death, your withdrawal is killing me!

I can't seem to kick you, darlin', I need another fix...
And each time I try to detox
You come back and pull me in.
I wish that I could fight you, darlin', but each time you call, I come...
I'm like a druggie with my arm out,
I'm like a desperate fucked up druggie
Always pining for your love.
And the worst part of it all, dear,
Is that I can't get enough...
And each time I feel the need, still,
I put my arm out, and pull you in.

You

In my most vivid dreams I did not dream you up,
And in my passionate prayers I did not pray for you...
I spent my falling stars on trivial pursuits,
And on my new years eves I hoped for something new.
But in my dreams and prayers I asked like such a child,
For something to fill the hole I feel inside...
And on my stars and eves I asked with foolish pride
For someone I'd deserve and someone who deserves,
And in all my poetry I did not write you up.

Despite my foolishness, despite my childish dreams,
Life gave me something that is plainly seen:
It gave me you, my dear, my blessing in disguise,
And in this fucked up life, I found my fight...
Despite me asking for what I did not need,
Life gave me you and satisfied my plead
So for as long as needed, I will stand by you
And I will hold you to me, and finally be at peace.

Each Time

Each time you go, I feel as if the tide has gone as well,
As if the morning sun will never reach my hell,
I feel as if this nightmare has no end,
And feel this darkness swell beneath my skin.
Each time you say goodbye I feel my legs
Give in, and have the feeling
My house of cards is to collapse
All over me, and bury me in rubble...
Each time you leave I feel myself give in
To the most primal urges of my ancestors...
I am reduced to a child in need of nurturing..
And every time you leave, I want you more.

More

I love you more, now, than ever before...
More than there are stars in the dark night sky...
More than there are grains of sand upon the earth
And more than there are drops of water in the oceans.
I love you more, now, than anyone before...
More than people have remained on earth..
More than there are atoms all around us
And much more than you can imagine.

Your Eyes

I looked into your eyes and saw the world more beautiful,
The windows to your soul remained untouched by darkness..
And in those seconds you remained eternal and unstained.
I looked into your eyes and saw heaven on earth,
The only place I found without a trace of sadness...
And I have to say, my darling, that between you and I...
I found my home.